So this whole thing…
Backfired right in my face. I try to take it all back, but I guess it’s not that easy. I guess this is what I get for making the mistake in the first place though. You were right, I feel stupid and this was not the right way to do this. You were always there for me, but I just never saw it because I was too caught up in my own jealous mind. So now, I guess I just have to learn to deal with it. I’m not even sure when I could try to contact you again without making things worse. So if and when you are ready, please just give me some kind of sign, because I have no idea. Honestly, I don’t think I learned anything when I removed you from everything. But now that I want it back and it’s getting taken away by somebody else, it feels way different. Like now I’m on the receiving end of what I started. It’s not easy at all. Not talking to you for a couple days makes life seem so uninteresting and empty. I really hope you’ll talk to me again, because to be honest, I need you. You’re what I love most.
